On The Other Hand

Recently, I’ve taken to bring a notebook to work with me so that I have a place for my wandering mind. Most of the time, I write notes on D&D campaign concepts and plot lines. It gives me a place for creativity where I would otherwise have none; I find that my focus is a lot better when I have an outlet for my more artistic and creative mind.

I want to do to things I care about, but there isn’t a place for me to do that, so I’m just being creative where I’m allowed rather than where I want to be.

I wish I had room at work to apply that to the issues we face, but often in work settings, when you are seeking creativity, you end up with something that feels more like “here’s a list of what we want you to do, but you can add some colors to it”. That experience becomes more exhausting as time goes by.

This is that classic running aground the whole concept of “do work you care about” for me: I want to do to things I care about, but there isn’t a place for me to do that, so I’m just being creative where I’m allowed rather than where I want to be. I am beyond my ability to count the amount of times I’ve clearly stated, “I’m passionate about design and UI” now. I said it yesterday. Last week. Last month. Last year.

I suppose there is something to be said about my direction being so consistent and so long. True passion is, if little else, enduring.

Until I can apply them in the workplace, I suppose I’ll settle for my out-of-work outlets, but… damn.

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